love...

well,
i dont know much about this,
for sure,
i have never been into one,
and im not looking forward for,
being in love before marriage,
and after marriage,
has their own pros and cons,
forced love doesn't mean you wont be happy,
it depends.
it takes more time to know each other better,
just pick the right one,
i have no rights to judge about that now,
i have a long way to go,
and i dont think ,
relationships will help,
besides,
we need to enjoy our memories being a teenager,
its a once in a lifetime opportunity,
i'll get there someday,
xx

always

i just wish life was not a reality,
i just wish we lived in a kingdom,
i just wish fairytales exist,
cause this pain and tears in life,
i just cant take this anymore,
im just not that strong girl,
like dad said,
my heart is fragile,
it is,
i just have to say this,
i take small things BIG,
i've tried not to care about it,
but i just cant,
and i really think being this way,
can destroy everything,
i need to change my perspective towards people too,
haihs,
this is life,
i wish i was not in this reality either,
it hurts.

surfers

the other day,
i watched this movie ,
soul surfer,
i cant stop my tears from falling,
'i dont need easy,i just need possible',
eventhough mum wont let me,
i will convince her someday,
surfing would be so fun!
xx

the truth is...

when people ask,
like are you okay?,
for sure you'll say no worries,im fine.
but the truth is,
you just cant hide it darling,
it shows it,
your face can show how you feel,
and when that happens,
i just wish i could book a flight ticket,
and just take sometime for myself,
cause somehow,
nobody can understand how you feel,
and it sucks to feel that way,
you lost track of life,
you dont have any idea what to do.

sisterships

kakak.
so,i am so blessed to have such,
annoying yet ,
but i still love her no matter what happens ;'),
i really miss talking about relationships with you,
watching movies ,
watching theather,
do not mention about it,
i miss everything,
spending time with you eventhough you were far,
we still quality time together,
suprisingly,
through all annoying moments with you,
i really miss you a lot kakak,
i will always remember this,
'kita mesti kena bergaya di mana saja,
kita nak pegi,
kita kan perempuan,
go change now,
i'll help you',
i just cant wait to hug you!,
xoo,
your gorgeous and lovely lil sister :)

beauty

surprisingly,
i learnt a lot of things today,
patterns are interesting,
colours are nice,
numbers are beautiful,
you just have to find them out,
there is always,
another chance,
am i am,
trying my best to be ,
the best daughter for my parents,
i just want to be wonderful for everyone.

turkey

aya sofya,istanbul.
such a wonderful place,
i just wish i can go there,
and take pictures!,
hahaha.
perhaps,
i shall meet the one there,
like Dian ,
lol Aalia,
you are such a dreamer.
anyways,
i am so happy for you Dian
:)

life

this is about people in life,
for my dearest,
please dont take her for granted,
you should know how much she loves you,
more than anything,
dont ever hurt her,
emotionally.
cause if you do,
you will regret.
she has  done everyhting for you,
please for most,
dont cheat on her,
because that will hurt her and,
every woman,
in this world,
love her more than anything.

Winter '12

I really miss London 😘

stars

it is now 1 am,
i should get some sleep,
goodnight paris,
xx

routine

it has been quite a long time since i updated,
many things happen ,
during that quite a long time,'
and now,
i may continue blogging,
since im going to practice writing and editing,
cause i am,
gonna be the future vogue editor :D

autumn '12

love.
its hard to find difficult  to accept,
through years,months,days.
you sacrife,
you love,
giving nothing but the best for him,
but one day,
you knew he had an affair.,
when it comes to that,
everything just became dark,
and darker,
you lost direction,
you never believed that he would do that to you,
cause you know that he loved you,
you dont know what else to do,
whereelse to be,
you are lost and dont know what to do,
you have given everything you got for him,'
and this is what you got back,
and now,
her questions has been answered,
after years,
going back late at nights,
outstations everyweek,
not answering phone calls,
and most importantly,
never been there for her she needs him badly.
is that love?
no its not,
its torture love,
hurting her every minute of life,
killing her feelings,
that is not love.

random

we will never feel enough with what we have,
we want more,
thats just life,
we like to change things,
try on new clothes,
buy smartphones,
basically,
everything.
but for some other people,
its hard to get what they want,
and they will work hard for it,
it that way,
we know how hard it is,
to get things that we want.

starstuck

"i can be everything you need,
if you're the one for me,
like gravity,i'll be unstoppable,
i may be an ordinary guy with heart and soul,
but you're the one for me,
i'lll be your hero"

someday

facts

to be exact,
im in that situation right now,
i just need a break,
and find myself back.

trip

finally,
alhamdulillah.
cant wait for the excitement,
bring it on,
im all ready.

Hillary Duff

hillary duff,
beauty and the briefcase.
well,this movie suprisingly,
has teached me quite a lot today,
work harder,
find deeper,
you cant be finding things that is hunting you,
all your life,
you have to stop living with your shadow,
and be more confident,
in everything you do,
cause bad things can turn into good ones,
in a blink of an eye,
thanks for teaching me how checklists actually works,
xo

hugs

and not to forget,
my boyfriend,
have a nice sleep and take care of yourself,
i may not be with you,
but trust me,
i will always be there,
i really hope you will do that for me too,
and dont forget to come and see me here,
since you are coming here soon,
xx,
girlfriend ^^

love

hopeless place,
ill be there soon,
meanwhile,
do come inside my dreams at night,
it will make up my day ^^,
goonight paris,
sweer dreams always,
xx

sadness

i am hoping to be like usual,
im not myself right now,
the real me is missing somewhere,
it takes time for me to find back myself,
cause im just about to fall,
but now,
im getting myself back,
even stronger than ever.
cause nobody knows how much it hurts .

wish

that one piece of advice that i really need to apply in life right now,
im counting on this.

fourteenth

HIHIHI,
helloooooo,
yes.
its my birthday,
thank you very much,
for the wishes and pranks,
im sorry for everythingi did,
all  this time,
to my mum,
thank you for bringing me,
to this planet called earth,
i love all of you,
xx

reality

i have been missing,
for quite sometime,
but im back.
life.
thats a big word,
its hard cause,
you cry,
you laugh,
going through it,
you need support,
you have to be strong,
cause sometimes,
people can make you fall,
it hurts when it does,
so just move on,
no matter what happens,
cause that what's life about.

S.

goodluck,
in performing today at jakarta,
have fun,
come and meet me at here someday,
xx

time

as time pass by,
memories last.
that makes life meaningful by then,
the times we spent,
the places we go,
the countries we went,
now is just
memories.
we just wish that we,
could just turn back time,
and paused it so that it could last forever.

letters to romeo

i may not be there,
but i'll always be there,
inside your heart.
anywhere,everytime.
i will always remember this,
i love you very much mama.

:>

indeed,i will be the one.HIKHIK:)

hope

well,
i guess paris is my hopeless place,
i meant that okay.
scrolling down pictures of paris,
is making me more eager to go there,
its beautiful.
je aime paris,
Je serai là ,
hopeless place.
i have been there,
i didnt know anything back then,
i would love to go again,
in an older version of A.
xx

hugs

hey,
meet my boys,
eventhough we are far apart,
i believe fate,
will meet us in the future,
loves,
forever and always.

life

life.
is determine by yourself,
problems.
is determine on how you handle it,
sometimes,
you just feel scared to move on in life,
cause you might hurt more.
as for that,
just stand up for yourself,
if your right,
and keep yourself held up high,
cause your're worth it.

fly

cause im glad,
to have someone to talk,
in every aspects,
being able to hear  their stories,
im happy.
to that person,
thanks for hearing mine,
ill always be there,
if you need someone to talk to,
cause,
we understand each other,
it will be easier that way i guess.
bye.

Fall.

did you know that i loved you but were you not aware,
you're the smile on my face and i aint going anywhere,
im here to make you happy,to make you smile,
i've been wanting to tell you this for a while,
who's gonna make you fall in love?

:3

cause no one knows how much it hurts,
just move on,
and fake a smile,
A

dilemma

hey,
what if you hate this person,
as,
you wish you can say it face to face,
but you cant,
cause you might hurt their  feelings,
hence,
it hurts to see their face.
dear you,
i hate you so much,
im hoping  you to know it,
cause i never treat you like others,
do change to be better okay?,
im hoping you to hate me too,
we may hate  each other,
but we have to smile,
maybe next time?,
sincerely,
A.

truth

cause everyone,
has that someone special,
in their life,
your pet can be special too,
as long as,
you love that someone with your heart,
not what they have,
truly,
me

:D

HIHI,thanks to,
that someone,
eventhough it was not that fancy,
i enjoyed it.
x

dessert

ice cream,
can someone bring me to,
somewhere,
where i can find the best ice ceam.
it looks good,
so it must taste good too!,
x

crave

i have been caving for them,,
bye.

otherside

its 3rd day of rayaaaa,
took many pics,
imma responsible photographer,
said someone:>,
well,
you know me,
im just so happy today,
someone is back today,
yayy!,
stay happy,
xx

special

somehow,
sometimes you want to be,
that person,
you dont know why.
but just wanna be like her,
thinking,
how lucky is to be in her shoes.
how could it be,
maybe personality?,
like in this korean movie,
i wanna be like her,
she knows how to bring herself,
wherever she goes,
without her parents nor family,
she doesnt care what people thinks,
and just be herself,
by then,
she met this guy that makes her ,
fall in love,
they went through ups and downs,
with a broken family,
the girl is now a sucessful, scientists.
cause everybody,
has its own story,
i have my own.
x

extraordinary

one day,
i'll be cycling around,
during winter
enjoying my hot chocolate,
and by then,
i'll find what i have been ,
looking for.

patience

that one thing i missed,
patience.
i dont have it anymore,
where did it go,
hey,
come back please.
be yourself,
the old you,
A.

instead

and yes,
my journey to italy,
would be the best,
it will be long,
but who cares,
i just need to be alone.

listener

cause only him
that i can rely on,
and listens to my doa,
and the one and only where,
i can find peace,
Allah.

inneed



a vacation.
maybe i could go to paris,
and eat the most delicious macaroons,
at laduree,
or italy,
where i can see many historical building,
and make  research about it,
or korea,
where i can futfil my wish,
to eat kimchi there,
and meet some famous artist,
or USA,
where i can go the disneyland,
and ride all the rollercoasters there,
or india
where i can be the witness ,
of shah jahan's love to mumtaz ,
taj mahal.
or milan,
where i can go shopping,
or london,
where i can meet my olympic diver,
or perhaps,
MECCA,
where i can execute my worship to Allah.

tired

its not easy to be a daughter,an aunty,
a friend,
cause you just want to be the best for them,
this one day
i was wondering.
what if i am just tired of being the best,
for them,
cause im just tired of always being there,
for someone else.
i just need to give my heart a break.
,

stuck

am wondering.
when we are always there,
for your friends,
listening to their stories and problems,
who is there to listen to yours?

my situation.
when there is just nobody there,
i burst into tears,
and depressed.
im glad my parents understands me,
 and thats why,       
i love them both,    
          forever and always .           

him

well,
hello there,
mr olympics diver,
im Aalia,
im just telling you that you are,
so cute?,
HAHA,
so be date me  maybe?,
thanks mr diver:>,
stay cute,
A<3