love...

well,
i dont know much about this,
for sure,
i have never been into one,
and im not looking forward for,
being in love before marriage,
and after marriage,
has their own pros and cons,
forced love doesn't mean you wont be happy,
it depends.
it takes more time to know each other better,
just pick the right one,
i have no rights to judge about that now,
i have a long way to go,
and i dont think ,
relationships will help,
besides,
we need to enjoy our memories being a teenager,
its a once in a lifetime opportunity,
i'll get there someday,
xx

always

i just wish life was not a reality,
i just wish we lived in a kingdom,
i just wish fairytales exist,
cause this pain and tears in life,
i just cant take this anymore,
im just not that strong girl,
like dad said,
my heart is fragile,
it is,
i just have to say this,
i take small things BIG,
i've tried not to care about it,
but i just cant,
and i really think being this way,
can destroy everything,
i need to change my perspective towards people too,
haihs,
this is life,
i wish i was not in this reality either,
it hurts.

surfers

the other day,
i watched this movie ,
soul surfer,
i cant stop my tears from falling,
'i dont need easy,i just need possible',
eventhough mum wont let me,
i will convince her someday,
surfing would be so fun!
xx

the truth is...

when people ask,
like are you okay?,
for sure you'll say no worries,im fine.
but the truth is,
you just cant hide it darling,
it shows it,
your face can show how you feel,
and when that happens,
i just wish i could book a flight ticket,
and just take sometime for myself,
cause somehow,
nobody can understand how you feel,
and it sucks to feel that way,
you lost track of life,
you dont have any idea what to do.

sisterships

kakak.
so,i am so blessed to have such,
annoying yet ,
but i still love her no matter what happens ;'),
i really miss talking about relationships with you,
watching movies ,
watching theather,
do not mention about it,
i miss everything,
spending time with you eventhough you were far,
we still quality time together,
suprisingly,
through all annoying moments with you,
i really miss you a lot kakak,
i will always remember this,
'kita mesti kena bergaya di mana saja,
kita nak pegi,
kita kan perempuan,
go change now,
i'll help you',
i just cant wait to hug you!,
xoo,
your gorgeous and lovely lil sister :)

beauty

surprisingly,
i learnt a lot of things today,
patterns are interesting,
colours are nice,
numbers are beautiful,
you just have to find them out,
there is always,
another chance,
am i am,
trying my best to be ,
the best daughter for my parents,
i just want to be wonderful for everyone.

turkey

aya sofya,istanbul.
such a wonderful place,
i just wish i can go there,
and take pictures!,
hahaha.
perhaps,
i shall meet the one there,
like Dian ,
lol Aalia,
you are such a dreamer.
anyways,
i am so happy for you Dian
:)